The sum of what I am – Matthews
Written for the BBC Radio 2 Radio Ballads ‘The Enemy within’


I am a woman, I have a big life
A Mother and Daughter
My lover’s widowed wife
These things are so much bigger than
The enemy that lives within
The shadow underneath my skin
Is not the sum of what I am

I am an exile, I fled alone
From a civil war that tore apart
My family and home
These memories are bigger than
The enemy that lives within
The shadow underneath my skin
Is not the sum of what I am

Give it a label, call it by name
But the life I made before this
It cannot claim
That life was so much bigger than
The enemy that lives within
The shadow underneath my skin
Is not the sum of what I am
The poison running through my veins
Spills and leaves a dirty stain
But it’s not all that will remain
It’s not the sum of what I am